Friday, December 21, 2018

The Best of 2018

Celebrating new music is important. In the subculture, we are constantly faced with a chorus of people who will tell you that the genres are dead and that there is nothing good coming out anymore. This opinion alone indicts how out of touch a person can be. There is a deluge of incredible new music coming out every year and it is important to take the time to praise the work of those who contribute to the subculture's sonic archive.


Adam Abou-Heif
(Owner of Material World Records & Tapes, founder of Bitter Lake Recordings, and founder of Katorga Works)

Here is a list of new releases that really struck a chord with me in 2018.

Big City - S/T CS (Self-Released)

Years in the making, Big City marks the return of the elusive Will Machi, who you may remember as the guitar virtuoso of Rochester hardcore punks Rational Animals. Was I the only person who loved Rational Animals? Most likely, yes. Anyway, here he's teamed up with Max (Hank Wood and the Hammerheads) and Dave (Perrett) to create something entirely different. This full-length cassette draws from the power of the great American rock ‘n’ roll songbook that recalls the best of the 70s, 80s, and 90s without falling prey to uninspired nostalgia. The band already has almost two more newer, better albums recorded, so I imagine people will start to catch on to this band soon enough!

Black Magick SS - Spectral Ecstasy CD (Infinite Wisdom Productions)

This Tasmanian psychedelic/occult rock band is one of my favorite acts of contemporary times. I've gushed endlessly about them before (their 2017 album Kaleidoscope Dreams made my top ten list that year) and here I go again. Like the album before it, the band is moving further and further away from their black metal roots. I don't think Spectral Ecstasy has had quite the same impact on me as Kaleidoscope Dreams, but I am still in love with it. Certainly, not a very palatable band, but I find them to be on the of the most inventive bands of contemporary times.

Condor - Cassette Single #2 CS (Not On Label)

Condor is the newest project of Maxime of Rixe, one of the premier contemporary oi bands in the world. In this one-man band, he explores a more classic French punk sound than his main band. Condor is a bit less polished, a bit less Oi, and, dare I say, even more FRENCH than Rixe, yet still super catchy and is a flawlessly-executed take on the sound. This would fit right in with legendary Chaos En France compilations. Their first cassette single made me a believer, but this cassette is punk perfection with some of the catchiest guitar leads I've heard in years.

Fulber, Rhys - Your Dystopia, My Utopia 2x12" (Sonic Groove)

This record caught me quite off guard. I obviously know Rhys Fulber from his work with Frontline Assembly and I tend to enjoy most releases on Adam X's Sonic Groove label (Adam's newest solo album Recon Mission showcases his love for EBM and is certainly worth checking out, as well!), but I wasn't at all expecting Fulber to be producing essential work this late into his career. Masterfully done industrial techno with, unsurprisingly, the occasional EBM flourish. Maybe I'm partial to this because of some sort of nostalgia, but I love this record!

Hank Wood and the Hammerheads - S/T LP (Toxic State)

This is the long-awaited third LP from NYC punks Hank Wood and the Hammerheads. Over the past decade, no punk band has been more definitively “NEW YORK” than Hammerheads. This record sees the band continuing to develop their songwriting into something more “mature” and even darker. The production is far richer than its predecessor, which happens to perfectly compliment with the more complex guitar and keyboard parts. Hank’s performance is his best since the modern classic Go Home, both more earnest and personal; there is a certain heaviness and world-weariness here that was not found on previous releases. For a band to continue to stay so vital in an increasingly fickle and forgetful world of punk is a true feat, and Hammerheads have graced us with yet another classic rock album. Essential.

Impure - Transfixed In Limbo 7" (Self-Released)

Impure is a new black/death metal band (citing Von, Autopsy, and Beherit as influences) from the masterminds behind Electric Assault Records and Stygian Black Hand, so of course it's going to be excellent. Transfixed In Limbo is the perfect black/death metal single a la Seraphic Decay (at least, that's what the format and aesthetic reminded me of!) and is so endlessly catchy that I can't help but flip the record over and over and over again each time I play it.

Jühning, Herz - Samsara LP (Galakthorrö)

Coming almost a decade after his Miasma album, Herz Jühning released what might be the definitive example of his brilliant meshing of power electronics brutality, wave-minimality, and the experimentation of classic industrial music. Samsara is very much in line with everything that's been coming out on Galakthorrö and it's funny to think that the label has been pegged as having a trademark "sound," as if that would  somehow be a slight against either one of the best industrial labels going or Jühning himself, who has made my favorite and most listened to industrial record of 2018.

Kikagaku Moyo - Masana Temples LP (Guruguru Brain)

Masana Temples is latest album from Tokyo psych rockers Kikagaku Moyo. Their 2016 album House In The Tall Grass has gone on to become one of my favorite records of the past decade. While I don't think this record is quite as perfect as that one, Masana Temples sees the band following the psychedelic path into even more mind-expanding territory, in particular through the band's obsession with South Asia, as the album incorporates even more elements of classical Indian music into their tried-and-true pool of influences including Krautrock, traditional folk, and 60s and 70s psych rock. There are still some serious high points, such as “Fluffy Kosmisch”, which has become one of my favorite Kikagaku Moyo songs. It's rare to hear a good contemporary psych record in this day and age, let alone one as phenomenal as this one.

Robyn - Honey LP (Konichiwa Records)

In a perfect world of my design, Robyn would be the most popular contemporary pop star. Well, fortunately for most (but maybe not Robyn), we are not living in anything close to resembling what I would consider a perfect world. Still, Robyn thrives without (or in spite of) the faux-divine intervention of dorks such as myself and has released yet another pop masterpiece with Honey. It has the familiar Robyn stamp on it, so no one will be disappointed by any sudden revolutionary change, but this album, as a whole, managed to subtly develop her sound in what is the most captivating and enveloping pop records I've heard in the last few years.

Warthog - 4th 7" (Toxic State)

NYC's well-oiled hardcore punk machine unsurprisingly releases yet another winner. Their live shows are so consistently excellent that I'm almost unfazed by them, at this point. Like their last 7" on Beach Impediment (which is my favorite overall), this 7" has far better production than their first two EPs on Iron Lung and Kaverka Derks. You know, it's's good. Also, Warthog has managed to do what most uninspired worship bands have failed to and make one of the best rock n roll songs of the year with “Brainwasher”. I don't know. Whatever.

And, in the era of reissue excess, here are my favorite reissue and archival releases:

Colored Music - S/T LP (WRWTFWW)

The 1981 self-titled album from cult Japanese duo Colored Music was a record I was sadly not acquainted with until it was reissued earlier this year. An incredible mix of cosmic new wave, unconventional disco, avant-garde synth pop, and hybrid electronic funk, Colored Music is enchantingly unique, a sort of experimental and magnetizing take on both David Bowie's Berlin Trilogy and Trevor Horn's visionary new wave machine, all with a very Japanese touch courtesy of fellow collaborators Haruomi Hosono, Yasuaki Shimizu, Jun Fukamachi, etc. It's a weird one, but I cannot recommend it enough!

Gaizin - S/T 7" (General Speech)

As with all General Speech releases, this reissue of this ultra-obscure Sapporo, Japan hardcore punk band is born of a singular passion and genuine obsession with this music not found in many reissue labels. This is for true heads only. Gaizin was a cassette-only band influenced by classic Japanese bands a la Gai and Confuse, as well as the "Sapporo Sound" of more well-known bands like Tranquilizer or the General Speech'd G-Gas. If you're at all interested in any of these Japanese bands, you have to find a way to get your hands on this record that appears to already be out-of-print.

Gania, Maalem Mahmoud - Colours Of The Night 2xLP (Hive Mind Records)

From everything I've read about this release, it technically came out in late 2017, but I didn't actually see it available in shops or from distributors until almost the middle of 2018, so I'm counting it. Morocco's Mahmoud Gania is perhaps the most important figure in 20th century Gnawa music and is a hero of the Guimbri. He was a huge influence on Guimbri player Abderahmane "Paco" Kirouche (one of the Moroccan musicians Jimi Hendrix traveled to play with in 1969), whose band legendary band Nass El Ghiwane helped not only popularize the instrument and style of music, but helped gain some much-needed social acceptance for the predominantly Black and Sufi Gnawa People in an Arab and Sunni-majority Morocco. Most Westerners who would be most familiar with Gania would know him from his collaborative The Trance Of Seven Colors album with the great Pharoah Sanders. Colours Of The Night consists of his final recordings and they're as magical as any I've heard from him. His mastery of the trance-inducing music of the Gnawa people is perhaps some of the finest sacred and devotional music I've ever experienced. رحمة الله عليه

Haus Arafna - Blut - Trilogie Des Blutes | Nachblutung 2xLP (Galakthorrö)

This expanded reissue of Blut, the first Haus Arafna album from 1995, is the first vinyl pressing of any of this material. German power electronics with only hints of the more "angst pop" sound that defines their later releases. Blut is perhaps the roughest of all of the Haus Arafna releases, but it is no less classic than anything else they've done. An essential industrial release that finally sees the light of day on vinyl.

Muslimgauze - Mullah Said 2xLP (Staalplat)

Bryn Jones' Muslimgauze project existed for multiple decades, with Jones churning out over one hundred releases that spanned all different styles within the industrial/electronic/experimental world. As a result, it might be difficult to find the right place in which to become acquainted with Jones' singular vision. I personally am most fond of his classic 80s industrial sound, but a close second for me would be much of his early-to-mid 90s material up until 1999's dub ambient Mullah Said (FYI, Justified Arrogance CEO James K butchered the pronunciation of this title to me once), which may be the last release of his that I truly love. This release is particularly heavy on Middle Eastern string and percussion samples and, as always, rich with Jones' unhealthily obsession with various Middle Eastern conflicts of which he had no legitimate connection too, but, hey, respect to the odd man for speaking out when most others in the West would not.

Sympathy Nervous - S/T LP (Minimal Wave)

A much needed reissue of this 1980 proto-techno/synth masterpiece from the legendary Sympathy Nervous, which was originally released on the cult Vanity label. Most Vanity releases were thought to be unreissueable (a fake word) due to visionary owner Yuzuru Agi's notoriously difficult personality and firm hold over his work. Yet, Veronica Vasicka's Minimal Wave label (the most important synth reissue label, in my book) persevered and has gone ahead and lovingly reissued this groundbreaking record.

Tuffour, Nana - Sikyi Medley 12" (Kalita Records/CC Editions)

Nana Tuffour is another artist I had never heard of before it was reissued. One of the more renowned Ghanian Highlife artists, I initially found this reissue to be a little strange, as it's a four-song 12" compilation that combines two of his most well-known songs and two rarities. My reservations were soon cast aside, as I became obsessed with the ten-minute title track, of which its electronic jubilance made it my most listened to song of 2018.

Vlad Tepes - A Catharsis For Human Illness Box Set (Drakkar Productions)

A Catharsis For Human Illness is a box set of the French Black Metal band Vlad Tepes, who were a founding and integral faction within the Les Légions Noires scene in the city of Brest. The band released a slew of cassettes in the early-to-mid 90s that are now classic examples of the French Black Metal. This box set sees each of these cassette releases remastered and reissued on vinyl for the first time ever. I am by no means a box set guy (I kind of hate them), but this particular set is beautifully spot lacquered and comes with a booklet detailing the band’s history, in-depth explanations to each recording, and exclusive photos. Perhaps an odd way to put it considering the source material, but this box set was an utter joy to consume!

Yokota, Susumu - Acid Mt. Fuji 2xLP (Midgar)

Finally, a vinyl version of Susumu Yokota’s 1994 landmark acid techno/ambient Acid Mt. Fuji. I owned this album on CD as a curious teenager and it remained one of my favorite electronic albums of this style until my 30s, when it was FINALLY pressed to vinyl for the first time ever. It is a singular work that is difficult to place in one easy category, as Yokota guides the listener through his aural interpretation of the Japanese monolith, ebbing and flowing effortlessly between masterful 90s acid techno and a throwback to 80s naturalistic ambient music and new age.

Various Artists - Habibi Funk (An Eclectic Selection Of Music From The Arab World) 2xLP (Habibi Funk)

Habibi Funk's definitive release thus far as a label, this 2xLP compilation culls from serious rarities of artists that often took typical local and regional styles and melded them with popular Western styles (funk, soul, disco, jazz, rock, etc.) to create some of the most wild music to come from various Middle Eastern and North African countries. Beyond a couple of artists, I hadn't heard of ANY of this and I fell in love Habibi Funk five seconds into the first track. It’s a German label, but I’ll bite my tongue and admit there is nothing but heat on this and they did an amazing job! Technically, this was released in December 2017, but it didn't reach most places until at least January 2018, so I'm gonna count it and if you dare try and stop me, Inshallah, you will get the shoe.


Michael "Cheddar" Quick 
(Guitarist, Candy)

Music -

S.H.I.T. - What Do You Stand For?
Illusion - Magic With A Smile
Deflect - 2018 Promo
Game - Who Will Play?
City Hunter - Deep Blood
Supernatural Psycho - Rendezvous With The Sun
Yves Tumor - Safe In The Hands Of Love


The Deuce


You Were Never Really Here
The Favorite

Bad year for movies imo, most of my favorites were older movies I had never seen or revisited so I’ll include those:

Once Upon A Time In The West
All The Presidents Men
La Haine


Chase H. Mason 
(Vocals, Gatecreeper / Bass, Spirit Adrift)

Metal top 10:

Hooded Menace - Ossuarium Silhouettes Unhallowed
Hyperdontia - Nexus Of Teeth
Ritual Necromancy - Disinterred Horror
Obliteration - Cenotaph Obscure
Cerebral Rot - Cessation Of Life
Moenen of Xezbeth - Ancient Spells of Darkness...
Torture Rack - Malefic Humiliation
Witchcraft - Nightmare Goetia Demo
Innumerable Forms - Punishment In Flesh
Tomb Mold - Manor of Infinite Forms

Honorable Mentions...

Mournful Congregation – The Incubus of Karma
Mortuous - Through Wilderness
Evoken - Hypnagogia
Corpsessed - Impetus of Death
Skeletal Remains - Devouring Mortality
Mammoth Grinder - Cosmic Crypt
Outer Heaven - Realms Of Eternal Decay
Genocide Pact - Order of Torment

Not Metal Top 10:

Lil Peep - Come Over When You're Sober, Part 2
Tony Molina - Kill The Lights
Freddie Gibbs & Curren$y - Fetti
Warthog - Warthog
Snail Mail - Lush
Beach House - 7
Pusha T - Daytona
Temple Of Angels - Foiled
Candy - Good To Feel
Fantasy Camp - How To Fix Everything


James Khubiar 
(Founder, Justified Arrogance)

Best Hardcore / Punk LPs

1.) Candy - Good To Feel (Triple B)
2.) Tozcos - Suenos Deceptivos (Verdugo Discos)
3.) Hank Wood & The Hammerheads - Hank Wood & The Hammerheads (Toxic State)
4.) Vein - errorzone (Closed Casket Activities)
5.) Sunshine Ward - Nuclear Ambitions (Bloody Master)
6.) Vile Gash - Nightmare In A Damaged Brain (Youth Attack)
7.) Rata Negra - Justicia Cósmica (La Vida Es Un Mus)
8.) Fucked Up - Dose Your Dreams (Merge)
9.) Suburbanite - Suburbanite (Youth Attack)
10.) Cadaver Dog - Dying Breed (Youth Attack)
11.) Permission - Drawing Breath Through A Hole In The Ground (La Vida Es Un Mus)
12.) Blood Pressure - Surrounded (Beach Impediment)
13.) S.H.I.T. - What Do You Stand For? (La Vida Es Un Mus)
14.) Waste Management - Tried And True (Painkiller)
15.) City Hunter - Deep Blood (Youth Attack)

Honorable Mentions

Terror - Total Retaliation (Pure Noise)
Mindforce - Excalibur (Triple B)
Trail Of Lies - W.A.R. (Edgewood)
King Nine - Death Rattle (Closed Casket Activities)
Turnstile - Time & Space (Roadrunner)

Best Metal Releases

1.) Innumerable Forms - Punishment In Flesh (Profound Lore)
2.) Mammoth Grinder - Cosmic Crypt (Relapse)
3.) Akitsa - Credo (Hospital Productions)
4.) Sleep - The Sciences (Third Man)
5.) Siege Column - Inferno Deathpassion (Nuclear War Now)
6.) Tomb Mold - Manor of Infinite Forms (20 Buck Spin)
7.) Genocide Pact - Order of Torment (Relapse)
8.) One Tail, One Head - Worlds Open, Worlds Collide (Terratur Possessions)
9.) Moenen of Xezbeth - Ancient Spells of Darkness... (Nuclear War Now)
10.) Hooded Menace - Ossuarium Silhouettes Unhallowed (Season Of Mist)

Honorable Mentions

Uniform & The Body - Mental Wounds Not Healing (Sacred Bones)
Craft - White Noise and Black Metal (Season of Mist)
Uniform - The Long Walk (Sacred Bones)
Mournful Congregation - The Incubus Of Karma (20 Buck Spin)

Best Rap / Hip-Hop / R&B Releases

1.) Pusha T - Daytona (G.O.O.D. Music)
2.) Cardi B - Invasion of Privacy (Atlantic)
3.) Lil Peep - Come Over When You're Sober Pt. 2 (Columbia)
4.) Jorja Smith - Lost & Found (FAMM)
5.) Future - Beast Mode 2 (Freebandz)
6.) 03 Greedo - God Level (Alamo)
7.) Nas - Nasir (G.O.O.D. Music)
8.) Juice Wrld & Future - Wrld on Drugs (Interscope)
9.) The Weeknd - My Dear Melancholy, (XO)
10.) Migos - Culture II (Capitol)

Honorable Mentions

Lil Baby - Harder Than Ever (4PF)
Sheck Wes - Mudboy (G.O.O.D. Music)
Kanye West - Ye (G.O.O.D. Music)
Young Thug - On The Rvn (300 Entertainment)

Best Releases In Open Competition

1.) Kamasi Washington - Heaven and Earth (Young Turks)
2.) Prince - Piano & A Microphone 1983 (NPG)
3.) Robyn - Honey (Konichiwa)
4.) Spiritualized - And Nothing Hurt (Bella Union)
5.) Nothing - Dance On The Blacktop (Relapse)
6.) Young Guv - 2 Sad 2 Funk (NIGHT SCHOOL)
7.) Iceage - Beyondless (Escho)
8.) Tony Molina - "Kill The Lights" (Slumberland)
9.) Beach House - 7 (Sub Pop)
10.) US Girls - In A Poem Unlimited (4AD)
11.) Snail Mail - Lush (Matador)
12.) The Soft Moon - Criminal (Sacred Bones)
13.) Mitski - Be The Cowboy (Dead Oceans)
14.) Marie Davidson - Working Class Woman (Ninja Tune)
15.) Camp Cope - How To Socialise & Make Friends (Run For Cover)

Honorable Mentions

Kacey Musgraves - Golden Hour (MCA Nashville)
Courtney Barnett - Tell Me How You Really Feel (Milk!)
Kelly Moran - Ultraviolet (Warp)
Empress Of - Us (Terrible)

Best Electronic Releases

1.) Ancient Methods - The Jericho Records (Self-Released)
2.) Varg - Nordic Flora Series Pt.5: Crush (Posh Isolation)
3.) Silent Servant - Shadows Of Death And Desire (Hospital Productions)
4.) Delroy Edwards - Rio Grande (L.A. Club Resource)
5.) Container - LP (Spectrum Spools)
6.) Cienfuegos - Autogolpe (Long Island Electrical Systems)
7.) Sophie - Oil of Every Pearl's Un-Insides (MSMSMSM)
8.) DJ Koze - Knock Knock (Pampa)
9.) Gas - Rausch (Kompakt)
10.) Fret - Silent Neighbour (Long Island Electrical Systems)

Honorable Mentions

Delroy Edwards - Aftershock (Long Island Electrical Systems)
Skee Mask - Compro (Ilian Tape)
Ron Morelli - Disappearer (Hospital Productions)
Kyo with Jeuru - All The Same Dream (Posh Isolation)

Best Hardcore / Punk EPs

1.) Warthog - Warthog (Toxic State)
2.) Mil-Spec - Changes (Lockin Out)
3.) Tragedy - Fury (Tragedy)
4.) Ekulu - Ekulu (Triple B)
5.) Subdued - 4 Track EP (La Vida Es Un Mus)
6.) Shipwrecked - SWD (Pretty Shitty Town)
7.) Illusion - Magic With A Smile (Lockin Out)
8.) Restraining Order - Restraining Order (New Age)
9.) Sial - Binasa (La Vida Es Un Mus)
10.) Deadlock - Deadlock (Painkiller)

Honorable Mentions

Arms Race - The Beast (Painkiller)
Exotica - Musique Exotique #03 (La Vida Es Un Mus)
Pure Pressure - Relàmpago De Furia (Painkiller)
The Flex - Flexual Healing Vol 7: Perhaps The War Is Over? Perhaps It's Peace? (Quality Control HQ)

Best Demos

1.) Stigmatism (Montreal, Canada + NYC)

5.) Innocent (Boston, MA)


Best Sets I Saw This Year

1.) Power Trip @ The Evil Beat Vol. 1 in Dallas, Texas (November 10th)
2.) Mammoth Grinder @ St. Vitus in Brooklyn, New York (March 2nd)
3.) Candy @ Brooklyn Bazaar in Brooklyn, New York (October 12th)
4.) Lil Ugly Mane @ Brooklyn Bazaar in Brooklyn, New York (November 5th)
5.) Vein @ This Is Hardcore in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania (July 27th)

Tuesday, October 30, 2018

RIP Todd Youth

I knew Todd. Not well. I know people who knew him better. I wasn't on the Lower East Side with him way back when and I didn't play in a band with him. I suppose that isn't the point though. We crossed paths a couple years ago after he told me he was a fan of the Justified Arrogance Instagram page (in truth probably because I posted about him so often). Every now and again, there'd be brief messages, mere acknowledgements of appreciation. Every single exchange I couldn't contain myself. Todd Youth, the mastermind behind Warzone, the guy who played with more legends than I could count, knew who I was and talked to me. In the times we spoke, I never asked any personal questions. I was too afraid to. Everything I know about Todd is the music he wrote, the stuff everyone else knows him for. It wasn't until later that people would tell me little things about his life, the random things you heard in passing.

That's the point of a life in death, isn't it? We're defined by our successes. The milestones. The plaques on the wall. The trophies on the mantle. In death, we're given the benefit of perfection. But beyond the music, Todd "Youth" Schofield lived a flawed life. I don't say that to impugn him, quite the contrary, I say it because it is the very reason why Todd Youth was one of the toughest souls that ever lived.

Born in 1971, Todd Youth immediately gravitated toward the hardcore punk scene living on the streets of the Lower East Side. He learned to play music at the legendary A7 in New York City. By the time he was 12 years old, he was filling in on bass for Antidote as well as playing bass for Agnostic Front. By age 15, he was a founding member of the band he would become most famous for: Warzone. Shortly after that, he would leave Warzone and join Murphy's Law. These are just a few of the parade of bands Todd would appear in. He would also play for Samhain, Danzig, Chrome Locust, Motorhead, D Generation, Glen Campbell, Fireburn, and Son of Sam. 

This isn't about the bands Todd played in. That's not important. Music is a lot of things to a lot of people. What it is, above all else, is a vehicle to describe a way we're feeling at a specific time and place in life. When we hear a certain song, we can close our eyes, and, for a brief fleeting moment, we're taken back to a different life in an another world. In that time, we feel like we can get it back. That's the curse of hardcore punk. It isn't about the moments we live in. It's about the moments we hope beyond hope we can get back. Todd's journey as a musician wasn't one chronicled in careerism or avarice. It was a personal search. With each project, he challenged himself to rise to the occasion. Be it sharing the stage with Lemmy in 2003 or playing behind Danzig in the late 90s. It was exactly who he was when he found his way into A7. He was a boy among men. Later he would become a star among immortals. He was never intimidated by the challenges life threw at him and he never ceased trying to challenge himself. He was angry and had something to prove. The trouble with someone who is always looking for a challenge is that the reality is they're challenging themselves the whole time. For every accolade, for every conquest, it's simply a level up toward the fight against themselves. The process of improvement so they can be more efficient at destroying themselves.

Hardcore equips us for a lot of things. It teaches us to be self-reliant, to stand our ground and fight back against anyone who should push us around, and, in a double-edged sword borne of raw naïveté, it teaches us to walk with our demons, not defeat them. In the best of times, this makes us stronger than we've ever known. In the heat of battle, we can summon strength we never thought possible. In the quiet lulls, we draw inspiration to create work that entire schools could try and fail to replicate. But in the darkest moments, our demons will devour us. It's the devil's bargain we all make to be a part of this. For all the gifts hardcore has given us, it refused to give us the one that so many of us came here for in the first place: inner peace and reconciliation. We need to hear that it's okay. We need to believe that it's okay. Todd never stopped moving in the quest to hear that existential affirmation. He created work that will last forever. More than that, his life painted a juxtaposition of sadness that few will ever truly understand. The brighter the star shines, the darker the shadow cast. He spanned a career running from himself and, in his wake, he left a trail of great music. They were the breadcrumbs of his internal struggle. Every band, every song was another chapter toward his pursuit for peace and reconciliation.

I finally understand Todd's journey and his search. I'm almost 33. My body is beginning to fail me and my health has started to turn on me. Some of the best friendships I've had in my life have long since eroded and disintegrated. I often wonder about the things I've done and rarely about the things I'm going to do. I think about all of that and then I throw on Don't Forget The Struggle, Don't Forget The Streets and for, a brief moment, it's like none of it ever ended: I'm back in Denton, Texas having beers with my friends on a Friday afternoon talking about everything and nothing, the world itself faded away and the only thing that mattered was us and then all at once it's gone again. We all know that feeling in one form or another. We want so badly to be a part of something special. When we find it, we hold on to it as tightly as possible and, in futility, we try to hold on for that extra second, praying that second will last forever. Once it's gone, the desire to get that feeling back becomes everything. We need that feeling to stave off the demons that brought us to that feeling in the first place. It is the catch-22 that plays for keeps. Todd knew this feeling better than anyone. He built NYHC at the ground floor, was a founding member of the Lower East Side Crew, helped write some of the most important hardcore anthems of all time. He wasn't just a part of something special. He was special.

From the Lower East Side to Hollywood, Todd lived a dozen lives. He did more in one lifetime than a sea of people could ever hope to do. All the while, he didn't stop searching. They say that there is a peace in death that we can never find in life. I don't know where Todd is right now, all I hope is that he's found that peace. One where the demons are finally gone, nothing hurt, and that moment will last forever.

RIP Todd Youth
1971 - 2018

Sunday, December 10, 2017

The Best of 2017

Celebrating new music is important. In the subculture, we are constantly faced with a chorus of people who will tell you that the genres are dead and that there is nothing good coming out anymore. This opinion alone indicts how out of touch a person can be. There is a deluge of incredible new music coming out every year and it is important to take the time to praise the work of those who contribute to the subculture's sonic archive.


Best Hardcore / Punk LPs

1.) Impalers - Cellar Dweller (540 / Static Shock)
2.) Concealed Blade - Concealed Blade (Beach Impediment)
3.) Exit Order - Seed of Hysteria (Side Two / La Vida Es Un Mus)
4.) Lebenden Toten - Mind Parasites (Self-Released)
5.) No Warning - Torture Culture (Bad Actors)
6.) Wiccans - Sailing A Crazy Ship (Dull Tools)
7.) Culture Shock - Culture Shock (Youth Attack)
8.) Civilized - Chopping Block (Youth Attack)
9.) Sial - Sial (La Vida Es Un Mus)
10.) Patsy - LA Women (La Vida Es Un Mus)

Honorable Mentions

- Haram - When You Have Won You Have Lost (Toxic State)
- Limp Wrist - Facades (Self-Released)
- Short Days - Short Days (Destructure)
- Straightjacket Nation - Straightjacket Nation (Cool Death / La Vida Es Un Mus)


Best Metal Releases

1.) Power Trip - Nightmare Logic (Southern Lord)
2.) Godflesh - Post Self (Avalanche Productions)
3.) Perverted Ceremony - Sabbat Of Behezaël (Nuclear War Now)
4.) Bone Awl - The Lowest Road (Klaxon)
5.) Nexul - Paradigm of Chaos (Hell's Headbangers)
6.) Midnight - Sweet Death and Ecstasy (Hell's Headbangers)
7.) G.A.T.E.S. ‎– Back From The Grave (High Society Satanic)
8.) Tetragrammacide - Primal Incinerators Of Moral Matrix (Iron Bonehead)
9.) Goatpenis - Anesthetic Vapor (Nuclear War Now)
10.) Foreseen - Grave Danger (20 Buck Spin)

Honorable Mentions

- Grinning Death's Head - Blood War (Youth Attack)
- Black Cilice - Banished From Time (Iron Bonehead)
- Ritual Knife - Hate Invocation (Fallen Empire)


Best Rap / Hip-Hop / R&B Releases

1.) Future - HNDRXX (Freebandz)
2.) Migos - Culture (Quality Control Music)
3.) Young Thug - Beautiful Thugger Girls (YSL)
4.) Future & Young Thug - Super Slimey (Freebandz & YSL)
5.) 21 Savage / Offset / Metro Boomin - Without Warning (Slaughter Gang / Quality Control Music / Boominati Worldwide)
6.) Cardi B - Gangsta Bitch Music, Vol. 2 (KSR)
7.) Gucci Mane / Metro Boomin - DropTopWop (GUWOP)
8.) 21 Savage - Issa Album (Slaughter Gang)
9.) Future - Future (Freebandz)
10.) Giggs - Wamp 2 Dem (No BS)

Honorable Mentions

- Chief Keef - Thot Breaker (RBC)
- Kelela - Take Me Apart (Warp)
- Juicy J - Rubba Band Business (Taylor Gang)
- A$AP Mob - Cozy Tapes Vol. 2: Too Cozy (A$AP Worldwide)


Best Releases In Open Competition

1.) Milk Music - Mystic 100's (Dom America)
2.) Prurient - Rainbow Mirror (Hospital Productions)
3.) Charly Bliss - Guppy (Barsuk)
4.) Bjork - Utopia (One Little Indian)
5.) Slowdive - Slowdive (Dead Oceans)
6.) Varg - Nordic Flora Series Pt. 3, Gore​-​Tex City (Northern Electronics)
7.) Tove Lo - Blue Lips (Island)
8.) Drab Majesty - The Demonstration (Dais)
9.) Chelsea Wolfe - Hiss Spun (Sargent House)
10.) Japanese Breakfast - Soft Sounds From Another Planet (Dead Oceans)

Honorable Mentions

- Pharmakon - Contact (Sacred Bones)
- Pissed Jeans - Why Love Now (Sub Pop)
- Uniform - Wake In Fight (Sacred Bones)
- Death of Lovers - The Acrobat (Dais)


Best Hardcore / Punk EPs

1.) Dame - Dame (Charm School)
2.) Rixe - Bapteme Du Feu (La Vida Es Un Mus)
3.) Dirty & His Fists - Dirty & His Fists (Feel It)
4.) Lebenden Toten - Static (Iron Lung)
5.) Barcelona - Un Último Ultrasonido Nació Y Murió En Barcelona (La Vida Es Un Mus)
6.) Candy - Candy Says (Triple B)
7.) Urchin - Peace Sign (Roachleg)
8.) Pollen - Fear of Another War (Brain Solvent Propaganda)
9.) Bib - Moshpit (Popwig)
10.) Aggression Pact - Instant Execution (Painkiller)

Honorable Mentions 

- Machine Gun - 10 Hardcore Tracks (Double Man)
- Ultra - Mistica Moderna (La Vida Es Un Mus)


Best Demos

1.) Mortal War (Philadelphia, USA)
2.) Witchtrial (Washington DC / New York City, USA)
3.) Imposter (Brighton, UK)
4.) Rashōmon (Washington DC, USA)
5.) Armament (Florida, USA)
6.) Pobreza Mental (New York City, USA)
7.) Secreto Publico (Mexico City, Mexico)
8.) Bombers - Loaded Gun (Boston, USA)
9.) Public Service (Glasgow, UK)
10.) Vile Spirit (Brighton, UK)


Best Sets of the Year

1.) Iron Age @ The Mohawk, March 25th
2.) Geography of Hell @ Warsaw, November 5th
3.) 9 Shocks Terror @ Brooklyn Bazaar, June 3rd
4.) Power Trip @ Webster Hall's Marlin Room, March 2nd
5.) Lust For Youth @ Brooklyn Bazaar, October 12th

Saturday, December 10, 2016

Best of 2016

Celebrating new music is important. In the subculture, we are constantly faced with a chorus of people who will tell you that the genres are dead and that there is nothing good coming out anymore. This opinion alone indicts how out of touch a person can be. There is a deluge of incredible new music coming out every year and it is important to take the time to praise the work of those who contribute to the subculture's sonic archive.

Adam Whites - founder of NYC record label Katorga Works and owner-operator of Brooklyn's Material World Records

New Releases

Mommy - Songs About Children LP

- This might be the most singular and unique punk record to be released in 2016. An incredible example of the true spirit of what made the contemporary NYC punk scene so special, as it is a completely enveloping experience that brings the listener into the harrowing an unwelcoming world of mental illness in ways few bands ever have, which spiritually aligns Mommy with a bands like Rudimentary Peni without feeling the need to try and sound like them. Punk should be difficult and challenging, not tepid rehashings of former glory, and this record is certainly challenging.

Warthog - S/T 7"

- Warthog has been one of the best live bands in the hardcore punk world for a minute, but this is their first release that truly captures that spirit and energy. Definitely my favorite punk record of the year.

Rakta - III LP

- I'll be totally honest: I used to think Rakta was awful. The first 12" REALLY bored me and I saw them play a disastrous set when my friend Nay and I booked a show for them on the ensuing tour. Well, I guess the band lost their guitar player to a cross-Atlantic move and, instead of replacing her, revamped their sound into something really special. No longer tepid post-punk revival, the band draws way more heavily on krautrock and psychedelic music, even with a touch of dub here and there. I honestly think that Rakta being marketed to punks is a huge misfire, as this band should be playing to a different type of audience that would care more this style. Either way, I will eat my words and say: I love this record and I love Rakta.

Blood Incantation - Starspawn LP

-This is the death metal record of the year for me for sure. Celestial and atmospheric, just nerdy enough. What a great band!

Uranium Club - Who Made The Man 7"

-Here's a theory I have: the most influential release for the midwestern punk sound of the moment is the reissue/first legit release of Hardcore Devo in 2013. Ever since then, there have been a huge wave of bands that have either tastefully taken influence from that era of Devo or have just completely aped the style. Uranium Club is the best example of the former, who take the influence and are still able to do something special with it AND write real songs. The older material was cool, but this single is a perfect punk single and the LP that this is on will surely replace this on my list once it comes out.

Framtid - The Horrific Visions 7"

-This is probably my least favorite Framtid release (still getting used to the new drummer), but it's still better than most other bands happening today! Framtid is the best.

Green Beret - Standing At The Mouth Of Hell 12"

-Oh hey, a band with riffs. This seems to be a novelty in 2016 hardcore punk, but Green Beret continues to be one of the most impressive AND under-appreciated bands in hardcore punk today.

Triage 7"

-Speaking of riffs, here's one of the most unexpectedly amazing releases of the year! I guess I had thought the best Toronto had to offer was S.H.I.T., but thank god I was wrong! JK actually, the new S.H.I.T. songs I've heard sound REALLY good. Anyway, if early-era Sacrilege had an Instagram, this is what they would sound like. Very contemporary with a classic touch to it, these songs are some of my favorite punk to come out in some time. Triage forever!


Queen - On Air 3xLP

-Queen, the most glorious band to ever exist! I'm a huge Queen nut, so this release certianly speaks to me. Three LPs of BBC sessions? Yes please! I think this release is notable to most casual fans for containing the first studio release of the fast version of "We Will Rock You," which has been floating around YouTube for years. The definitive version of that song is on Queen Rock Montreal (best concert footage AND best Queen recording IMO), but this is still awesome to have on vinyl.

Thiam, Mor - Din Safarrar (Drums Of Fire) LP

-I honestly hadn't heard of this record until this reissue came out, but it's blown me away. Spiritual jazz with an Afro-centric and funky atmosphere. Also notable is that Mor Thiam is Akon's father. I guess the original goes for four figures, so, thanks to this reissue, I'm very grateful to have yet another unattainable record to have to search for now :(.

Breakdown - '87 Demo LP

-This is my favorite Breakdown material, so I was obviously excited that it was released in full instead of an abbreviated 7". NYHC at its finest. The b-side is an amazing WFMU recording with some of my favorite banter. 

Cirith Ungol - Paradise Lost LP

-AW YEAH. This is the first legit vinyl release of Cirith Ungol's final studio album, Paradise Lost, which was released only on CD in 1991. Not quite as good as their masterpiece King of the Dead, but despite this being their most misunderstood album, I truly believe this stands up to their other work. JOIN THE LEGION.

Gas - Box 4xLP + 4xCD 

- Gas was one of my favorite ambient techno acts when I used to listen to this stuff a lot more in my adventurous teens and to have all of this material compiled into one boxset has been a godsend, because I wasn't buying vinyl at the time. This stuff is just beautiful. 

V/A - From Minimal Wave With Love CS 

-Yet another Minimal Wave comp? You'd probably think Veronica would have run out of relevant material by now and, yes, there's some stuff on this that's appeared elsewhere, but if you want masterful synth curation like no other, Minimal Wave is the place to go. You can never own enough releases with the song "Russia" by Elisa Waut, I might add. 

Mystic Inane - The EPs of M/I 12" 

-One of the most unique hardcore punk bands of the past five years. Everything Candice does is amazing and to have their EPs compiled into one LP is exactly what my lazy-ass needed. Go Mystic Inane!

AZOK - S.A.F.N.P. 7"

As General Speech stated in their official description of this cult Japanese punk obscurity, it’s nearly impossible to reissue something people haven’t heard before in the age of both reissue label culture and internet omnipotence, yet here we have AZOK. I believe the original release was limited to a mere 10 cassettes, but has now reissued in a limited run of 200 7”s. With a sound akin to G.I.S.M. being played through a blender, Azok should appeal to any fans of the classic dark and violent sounding 80's hardcore punk bands of Japan. This is a truly unique punk experience that I am so glad has seen a slightly wider release.

Brian C. Crozier - guitarist of Vanity and Pox, bass player of Lion's Cage

Maxime Smadja - drummer of French band Rixe and sole performer in Digital Octopus

Top 2016

Arms Race - New Wave Of British Hardcore LP
Anxiety - ST LP
CC Dust - CC Dust LP
Vanity - Don't Be Shy LP
Uranium Club - Human Exploration LP
The Cowboys - ST LP
Urochromes - Anthology LP
Pierre et Bastien - Musique Grecque LP
Rendez-Vous - Distance LP

Barcelona - Pueden Ser Ellos 7"
Triage - Power Beat 7"
Warthog - Warthog 7"
C.C.T.V - Piece of Paper and Audiocassette Tape 7"
Uranium Club - Who Made The Man 7"

DLIMC - November Cassingle Tape
Uranium Club - Beat Session Vol.1 Tape
Exotica - Musique Exotique Tape
Impalers - Promo Tape

Top Classics 2016

Cro-Mags - Age Of Quarrel LP
Thin Lizzy - Fighting LP
Kiss - Hotter Than Hell LP
Brainwash - Etat D'Urgence 1982 - 1986 LP
Doctors Cat - Feel The Drive Maxi
Elli et Jacno - Tout Va Sauter LP
Rich Kids - Ghost Of Princes In Towers LP

The Chills ‎– Kaleidoscope World LP

James Khubiar - founder of Justified Arrogance

Top 10 Hardcore / Punk LPs
1. Crown Court - Capital Offence (Katorga Works / Rebellion)
2. Omegas - Power To Exist (Beach Impediment)
3. Mommy - Songs About Children (Toxic State)
4. Absolute Power - Absolute Power (Youth Attack)
5. Green Beret - Standing at the Mouth of Hell (Side Two)
6. Latishia's Skull Drawing - Romanticized (Iron Lung)
7. Cinderblock - Cinderblock (Brain Solvent Propaganda)
8. Arms Race - New Wave of British Hardcore (Painkiller / La Vida Es Un Mus)
9. The Repos - Poser (Youth Attack)
10. Lumpy & The Dumpers - Huff My Sack (La Vida Es Un Mus)

Top 10 Non-Hardcore Punk LPs
1. Dark Blue - Start of the World (12XU)
2. Nothing - Tired of Tomorrow (Relapse)
3. Vanity - Don't Be Shy (Katorga Works)
4. Belgrado - Obraz (La Vida Es Un Mus)
5. Merchandise - A Corpse Wired For Sound (4AD)
6. Croatian Amor - Love Means Taking Action (Posh Isolation)
7. Lust For Youth - Compassion (Sacred Bones)
8. Cheena - Spend The Night With... (Sacred Bones)
9. Psychic Mirrors - Nature of Evil (Cosmic Chronic)
10. Puce Mary - The Spiral (Posh Isolation)

Top 10 Hardcore / Punk EPs
1. Framtid - The Horrific Visions (Brain Solvent Propaganda)
2. Warthog - Warthog (Beach Impediment)
3. Rixe - Les Nerfs A Vif (La Vida Es Un Mus)
4. S.H.I.T. - I (La Vida Es Un Mus)
5. Paranoid - Punkdemonium Hell (Suede)
6. Pollen - EP (Brain Solvent Propaganda)
7. Sunshine Ward - Order (Feral Ward)
8. JJ Doll - JJ Doll (Katorga Works)
9. Kriegshog - General (La Vida Es Un Mus)
10. Vaaska - Futuro Primtivo (Vox Populi)

Hardcore / Punk Demos
1. JJ Doll
2. Krimewatch
3. Exotica - Musique Exotique #01
4. Reckless Aggression - 2nd Demo
5. Malcontent

Top 5 Shows of 2016
1. The Stone Roses @ Madison Square Garden, June 30th
2. Death Side / Warthog / S.H.I.T. / Vaaska / Mommy / Indignation @ Le Poisson Rouge, April 16th
3. Aspects of War / Warthog / Indignation / Conspiracy / Porvenir Oscuro @ The Acheron, July 8th
4. Anasazi / Crazy Spirit / Pawns / Dog @ Sunnyvale, October 31st
5. Hank Wood and Hammerheads / Sheer Mag / Haram @ Sunnyvale, September 11th

Saturday, September 10, 2016

Being Middle Eastern

There's a level of irony that I've somehow arrived at this particular topic on the eve of the 15th anniversary of 9/11. 9/11 for a Middle Eastern-American marks the end of our presumed innocence in this society. Before 9/11, the term 'terrorist' was still synonymous with Middle Easterners. However, it was after that day when those Middle Eastern terrorists were no longer just denizens of a faraway land. The yellow journalism machine and the Bush administration saw to it that all Middle Easterners domestically would be considered terrorists. 

It was after that day that neighbors stopped being neighbors, students stopped being students, and citizens stopped being citizens. It was after that day that we all became suspects.

I am Middle Eastern and I am a punk.

For a long time, those two statements existed separately from each other, but they both always served to remind me that I was somehow different from everyone else. It's only been in the last few years however that I've seen a lot of discussions about different races being made to feel included in the punk scene and that this is a white club. Being a Middle Eastern, I always resented that sentiment a little bit. Black people could look toward the Bad Brains and bands like Burn and Absolution for inspiration and representation. Latinos had bands like Los Crudos here in the USA and their compatriots in Latin America. Asians could look toward Japan and see one of the greatest scenes in the world. What about Middle Easterners? We've never had that kind of representation in the punk scene. Sure, we had people like Armand Majidi (Sick of It All / Rest In Pieces), Faiza Kracheni (Hatred Surge / Body Pressure), Amir Mamori (Fearless Iranians From Hell) and other scattered individuals representing the region but their participation was never vaunted for their background much in the way other groups would receive acclaim for it. As an ethnic group in the scene, we simply existed in the shadows while being largely ignored. Most of the time people would think we're something else, from Italian to Mexican. An Egyptian punk friend of mine once remarked that "being a Middle Eastern in punk is a lonely existence".

Then along came New York City's Haram.

Haram, fronted by Nader Hamam (whose ethnic background is Lebanese), became the first punk band to feature vocals and lyrics entirely in Arabic. The very meaning of the word Haram is a sin or a violation of Islamic law. What Haram meant for the Middle Eastern community in the punk scene is that someone finally took a step forward out of the shadows and planted a declarative foot down for our people. The most beautiful aspect of Haram is that they are the beginning of our voice as a people in the punk scene. Before them, we existed as mere mutes. We were there, but never as Middle Eastern.

When I first met Nader, I honestly wasn't quite sure what to expect. We got to chatting outside of a show, smoked a few cigarettes, and we started riffing about Middle Eastern politics. We talked about how dangerous radical Islam and Wahhabism are. He asked me a lot of questions about Kemalism and how he too lamented the death of secularism in Turkey under the Erdogan regime. He agreed with my explanation about why the Assad government is Syria's best hope for a future (a markedly anti-ISIS/anti-Al Qaeda position). We talked and talked and it was clear from the outset that we understood each other. We never had discord as much as we were able to take in a clearer perspective of where we come from as a people through our dialogues. Along the way, he's become a person that I have accumulated an immeasurable amount of admiration and respect for.

This past Wednesday night, I was at a show when, in between songs, I heard the band's vocalist say "this goes out to my friend Nader for beating the FBI". I honestly thought it was a joke when I heard it. Do you know how many times a Middle Eastern person will hear in their life that they've been investigated by the Feds? Growing up, it was something me and my cousins used to say to each other as a joke if we did anything 'too Middle Eastern'. The next day on Facebook, I started seeing posts about Nader and the FBI. I realized then, it wasn't a joke.

Before I could even think about reacting, I noticed my eyes were burning the way they usually do when my anger gives way to tears. I had just learned that someone I feel privileged to call my friend, who fronts a band that literally exists to challenge radical Islam, and is someone that I've had many conversations with denouncing ISIS and scheming ways to destroy them had just been under local and federal investigation for being a suspected ISIS loyalist. All I could think to myself was "Nader is 100% the opposite of an ISIS loyalist. If they got it wrong about him after all that, it means that they'll never get it right about any of us."

It was important to me that I found someone else in the scene who understood what being Middle Eastern in punk feels like. If someone called a black person a hard R at a show or party, that person would likely get beat up. I can't say the same would happen if someone called a Middle Eastern person a sand nigger or a camel jockey or a dune coon or a fucking terrorist. If you're offended by reading those slurs, I'm offended that I had to be called them. I've been called those slurs so many times over the years and it was always met with causal snickers as if somehow racially abusing a Middle Eastern was different from any other group. We're not considered worthy to mainstream American society. At best, we're convenience store employees. At worst, we're terrorists. It's one thing to be a marginalized group. It's another to be marginalized and ignored.

I see a lot of kids in the punk scene today talking about the Black Lives Matter movement and the status of Latinos in the Southwestern USA. What about what Middle Easterners endure in this society? The conservative zeitgeist on the Middle East and its people range from putting all of us in interment camps to deporting us to ensuring none of us can enter the USA to out and out flattening the region with bombs. Even in punk, the RAC scene (Rock Against Communism; modern Nazi punk banner) has been re-branded in the last decade to say Rock Against Islam and Rock Against Terrorism. We are branded enemies with no allies coming to our aid. I'm not saying any of this to diminish the plight of other peoples of color, I'm simply asking why does our plight have to be ignored? We're not surrealist Tolstoy characters nor are we casualties of a tragic and often unfortunate culture. Everyone is racing to demonize and patronize while the race for understanding is at a virtual standstill.

What happened to Nader is not an outlier. It happens every day in this country to all Middle Easterners. We're attacked because a lot of us are immigrants or even first generation Americans borne to immigrant parents. We're marked as different by everyone. By the conservatives who want to nuke us and the liberals who want to coddle us by trying to justify the faith's worst aspects under the veil of Islamophobia. There's no call for inclusion, only arguments to remind everyone that we're different. Race relations as a whole are broken in this society but somehow considerations for the plight of Middle Easterners have fallen entirely by the wayside.

To close, I'm going to share a story I haven't told anyone in my adult life until I talked to Nader last night about all of this. It's important that Middle Easterners feel strong enough to talk about when they've been socially abused in the name of a society that they're being accused of hating. Only in a society where Donald Trump is on the presidential ticket would such backwards logic make sense.

When I was 15 years old and I was in 10th grade attending high school near Dallas, Texas, I had a fascination with gun culture, militias, and right wing literature. I was enamored by the libertarian politics that they espoused and the overall taboo subject matter as much of what I was getting into would 'get you put on a watch list'. In February 2002 (five months after 9/11), I was in fourth period Spanish reading The Turner Diaries (the book that was used as the blueprint for the OKC bombing perpetrated by Caucasian Timothy McVeigh) when I got called into the assistant principal's office. I automatically thought that someone had reported me for reading a book with racist content and that I would be asked about it. I sat down, anticipating the questions, and the AP curves me with the opening question "James, do you know what a weapon of mass destruction is?" I respond "yes sir, it is a biological, chemical, or nuclear weapon and it can also be something like a truck bomb." He responds, "do you know where someone could get a weapon of mass destruction?" I answer "no sir, I'm 15 years old." Before he could ask another question, I cut to the chase, "sir, can you please tell me what this is all about?" The AP tells me "a teacher claims they saw you meeting with a group of Arab men in the parking lot of the school talking about unleashing a weapon of mass destruction on the school." I immediately burst out laughing. I fell out of my chair I was laughing so hard. It was at that point the AP realized how foolish he looked and that he had been sent on a wild goose chase. He ended his inquiry with "so you deny the accusation?" I responded "I'm 15 years old, sir".

I went home and told my mom what happened while still chuckling about it. My mother blew up and called the school screaming at literally any person she could get on the phone. The word "lawsuit" was thrown around, a lot. My mom later told me how hard her (a Turkish secularist) and my father (whose family fled Iran as the secular Shah's regime fell to Islamist militants) worked very hard to make sure that my brother and I would never be abused about where we come from. My mom went on to tell me that's part of how I ended up with the name James. She told me "you already had a Persian last name, you were going to be different enough, I was trying to make it easier for you". The point of this story is that even while I was doing something I recognized as wrong like reading a book on white nationalism, the only thing anyone's mind could conclude about me was "he's a Muslim terrorist".

It never stops and, after talking to Nader, it seems like it will never change meaning it will never end. I wish I could say something like "Middle Easterners matter" but the fact is people need to first recognize Middle Easterners exist before they can say we matter.

Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Gucci Mane

Gucci Mane was released from prison last week. There are two groups of people that are excited about this: those who know what a free Gucci means for the rap world and those who follow the memes and lack any grasp of who or what Gucci Mane really is.

Recently, a high profile music publication published an article on why Gucci Mane is the most influential rapper of the last decade. You don't need seek this article out. It's about 300 words and sounds like it was written by some fool that wrote it on his phone while waiting in line for a fitting room at the Supreme store because his editor said "Gucci is free, now give me something". I don't take exception to the article's thesis statement. In fact, I've been championing this exact contention for the last two years. While everyone else rotated between Kanye West, Jay-Z, and Drake, I always said Gucci Mane. The problem I have with this article is that it reads from the narrative of memes and social media. To the author of this article, Gucci's legacy is not defined by the creative entity and power center that he is. Rather, he is defined by quotes like "lost in the sauce" and "bitch I might be". This is problematic and wildly myopic. If you look at the big picture, you realize that Gucci Mane is not only the most influential rapper of the last ten years, but perhaps of all time.

Gucci Mane is a legend. This fact is not under dispute. The problem with being a legend is that if enough time passes people will forget what makes the legend a legend. When that happens the legend washes into parody. We arrive at the shallow understanding that produces memes and poor aptitude. There are several reasons why Gucci Mane is a legend and perhaps the greatest of all time and it is important to know why or risk chewing on a meme for your intellectual credentials.

Street King

In 2005, Gucci Mane was still a bit of an unknown. He was working on self-releasing his album Trap House. To boost the star power on the record, he paid Young Jeezy (then hailed as the savior of gangsta rap) to do a feature on the song "Icy". The song wound up being a breakaway hit and made Gucci Mane's bones in the rap world. Jeezy's people at Def Jam felt the song could do even more if it was given a bigger platform. They instructed Jeezy to perusade Gucci into selling the publishing rights of "Icy" to them. Jeezy comes to Gucci with a hefty offer to outright buy the rights to the song. Gucci rebuffs the offer and tells Jeezy to kick rocks. This would spark the Gucci - Jeezy beef (one of the most heated rap feuds of all time and is discussed in great detail in Mara Shaloup's book BMF). After having his offer rejected by Gucci, Jeezy resorted to mentioning his associations to try and intimidate Gucci into selling. Jeezy was backed by Big Meech and the Black Mafia Family (BMF). In 2006, BMF ran most of the cocaine game in Atlanta, St. Louis, South Carolina, and Detroit. They were organized, dangerous, and, because of Jeezy, were now enemies of Gucci Mane. Upping the ante, Jeezy basically hit Gucci with "do what I say or else". Gucci, being the street nihilist that he is, responded by dropping the song "Round 1" where he tells Jeezy "put a dress on a nigga, you Meech's bitch". Losing patience, Jeezy and Meech hatch a scheme to take care of Gucci. Jeezy offered a group of five rappers from the Atlanta area a record deal with CTE (Jeezy's Def Jam imprint) if they kill Gucci. The group accepts and go after Gucci. They hit a house where Gucci was at and, in a plan gone awry, failed to kill him. Rather, Gucci was able to draw a weapon of his own and kill one of the invaders, wounding another, causing the other three to flee. The next day (the day before Trap House was to drop), Gucci turned himself in to authorities and claimed self-defense (which worked). When it was all said and done, Gucci Mane took on Young Jeezy, Big Meech and one of the largest criminal syndicates in the southeastern United States and won. It cemented his reputation that he was not someone to ever be trifled with.

Best A&R Ever

Simply put: if Gucci puts on for you, you are a made man. Much like E.F. Hutton, if Gucci is talking about another rapper, you better be listening. He groomed Waka Flocka Flame into his protege, spawning one of the most popular rappers. Future was a nobody until Free Bricks came out and minted his name. Young Thug was considered "niche and acquired" until Gucci signed him to 1017 and released 1017 Thug and everyone stopped to pay attention. The list of rappers and producers that Gucci has scouted out and put on for is staggering:

- Young Dolph
- Waka Flocka Flame
- Future
- Rich Homie Quan
- Young Thug
- Migos
- OJ Da Juiceman
- Young Scooter
- PeeWee Longway
- Zaytoven
- Sonny Digital
- C4
- Southside
- Lex Luger
- Metro Boomin
- Mike Will Made It


Rich Homie Quan during an interview with Drug Money USA was once asked what was his favorite thing about working with Gucci Mane. He answered Gucci's work ethic was inspiring. Rich Homie said on his best day he could maybe lay down three songs. He said Gucci on an average day lays down seven songs. When Gucci went in to prison, a record executive remarked to me that Gucci's people were sitting on two terabytes of verses that could be used for songs. In 2014, Gucci released fifteen (15) albums and mixtapes. As far as output goes, no one comes close to Gucci's.


People come to Gucci and offer their services for his releases. He doesn't have to beg or pay. While Mike Will Made It charges artists in LA a fortune for his beats, he readily gives them to Gucci for his releases. His features are regularly a who's who of the rap game from Future to Rich Homie Quan. Aside from the esteem Gucci holds, it is even more amazing that people in the rap game won't touch his enemies. When Flocka and Gucci's beef reignited in late 2013, Flocka declared he was over the rap game and wanted to break into the EDM world. Given how contentious the beef was (Flocka's cousin Frenchie went as far of accusing Gucci of being behind the murder of beloved 1017 member Slim Dunkin), it isn't a stretch to say that Gucci had Flocka blacklisted. Was Flocka really over the rap game or was the rap game ignoring him? It is kind of hard to be a successful rapper when the best producers won't touch you and the only features you can get are your brother (Wooh Da Kid) and cousin (Frenchie).

Beyond the memes, stories, and quotes, there's still Gucci Mane. The gears are still turning and he's still scheming. His name is still the heaviest on the streets. What matters above all else is that he did it all himself. He didn't kowtow to labels and superstars so much as he took them on. He builds his own soldiers from the ground up and they stay loyal to him no matter what heights they may reach. He will bury you in the booth and if he utters a bad word about you, it will cause more damage to your career than a hundred scandals. In a genre like modern rap, where fans have the memory of a goldfish, it is very easy to forget about someone who has held it down as long and as strongly as Gucci Mane. I could ponder the question if prison slowed him down or not, but the fact is I've been watching Gucci Mane all this time and I know better enough to know that there is no slowing him down.

Sunday, February 21, 2016

Top 10 NYHC Demos Ever

After doing EPs and LPs and saving the best for last, it is time to make it a hat trick.

Honorable Mentions:

The Psychos - 1984
Trip 6 - June '87
Leeway - Enforcer
Merauder - Eddie Sutton
Fit of Anger - 1988
In Your Face - 1988
NY Hoods - Built As One
SFA - 1987
Beyond - Dew It
Warzone - As One
Breakdown - Running Scared
Life's Blood - 1988
Cro-Mags - 1985
Citizen's Arrest - 1989
Show of Force - 1990
Sick of It All - 1987
Ultra-Violence - 1984
Skinhead Youth - 1984
Disciplinary Action - 1989
Outburst - 1987
Our Gang - Uprising
Sheer Terror - 1985
Reach Out - 1988
Maximum Penalty - 1988
Frontline - 1982
Dmize - 1990
District 9 - 1991
The Abused - 1982

10. Dynamo - Face Your Fears
The last great NYHC demo released in 1996. Dynamo was fronted by the late NYHC legend Carl The Mosher. The same Carl The Mosher who did vocals for Underdog on one demo and fronted The Icemen. The band's demo was a callback to the grating style of hardcore that many of the bands that came before played. What stands out best on the demo however, are Carl's vocals and lyrics. It was with Dynamo he really hit his stride. Gone were the theatrics of The Icemen and Carl just got to be himself. The result are songs like "Cold World" and "My Own Rules" (one of the best NYHC songs ever written).

9. Youth Defense League - Skinheads 88
If this isn't the best US oi release ever, it is easily the hardest. New York City has always had a skinhead presence. Going all the way back to its beginning. Agnostic Front and Warzone based much of their identities around it. Being a part of the NYHC scene gave YDL many of the tools they needed to be as effective as they were forthright. The 88 demo has anthems like "Turn Coat" and "The Boys" and as far as what YDL was able to accomplish, they were one of a kind. They were a band that was able to play competent US oi (this is no small feat, it is almost like US black metal really) with a certain level of ferocity that only the English had been able to attain as a result of being actively legislated against in Thatcher's Britain. YDL attained from living in what amounted to a third world country that was 1980s Brooklyn.

8. Underdog - 1988
If there was ever a time where Underdog could say they sounded 'raw' it was 88. There was always a measure of precision to Underdog that had them sound like they were always one step ahead of their contemporaries. On the 88 demo, Richie Birkenhead's vocals bear more aggression to them than any other time in his career. The music is slow paced and never without purpose. This is most evident on the four minute tour de force track "Underdog". The same can be said for the track "Mass Movement" which utilized harmony to mess with tempo, a style that had been previously been introduced to NYHC on the Cro-Mags' The Age of Quarrel. If there is a natural successor, stylistically, to that album it is Underdog's 88 demo. For good measure, the demo even features a dub song "Reach Out" and closes out with the anthem "Without Fear" (a precursor to what would eventually become the band's seminal track "Back To Back"; about as good of a summation for the band's vocalist if ever there was one).

7. Merauder - Minus
Merauder was a very special band. This incarnation of the band is still the best. While Eddie Sutton might have had the edge on vocals, Minus' presence is something else entirely. There is a reason why when old NYHC heads talk about the scene's hardest moshers and toughest dudes, they almost immediately and unanimously say "Minus". That's the kind of person that needed to front Merauder and lay down vocals over the riffs written by the late and inimitable Sob. This demo has an aesthetic that so many bands have tried to replicate since. They can't. No one can. The Minus demo sounds so hard and raw because the people who wrote and played on it were hard and raw. The intersection of authenticity and aesthetic in hardcore is a rare occurrence these days, but the Minus demo still holds up as the hallmark example.

6. Krakdown - 1987
The '87 Krakdown demo doesn't make its point with a grand prose about life on the streets nor through a structured sonic barrage. Instead it chooses to capture a sound bearing urgency, anger, and a certain bit of forthrightness that tells listeners they know the deal (doing so with one of my favorite bass tones ever recorded). More importantly, they don't give you time to think about it. Points can be made in many ways. Sometimes you just need not to let up and exhaust listeners. Krakdown is another one of those bands that have become criminally underrated over the years. Not so much because people don't talk about them, but because they rarely enter the "greatest" discussions. The 87 demo is a textbook example of what an NYHC demo ought to sound like. It isn't flashy nor is it shrouded in mythos. It is the Tim Duncan of NYHC demos.

5. Absolution - 1988
There is a sea of people who don't know about Absolution. It is one of modern hardcore's biggest tragedies. From the moment the band arrived on the scene, everyone knew they were something special. From being the starlet band on the eminent New Breed compilation to their incredible demo, Absolution left nothing off the table in their time. Why they're overlooked now is really a result of bad timing. If they had come on the scene two years earlier or two years later, we would talk about them as fondly as the biggest NYHC legends. Because they arrived in such a saturated time of quality in New York, they've fallen by the way side. Virtually anyone who was there at the time or the most die hard of NYHC fans swear by Absolution for a reason. Between Djinji Brown's special and poignant vocals / lyrics and Gavin Van Vlack's incredible guitar work (where he would later rise to prominence for his work in Burn), Absolution did something special on the 88 demo.

4. Altercation - Unite Us
The Altercation demo has one of my favorite 1-2 punches ever in hardcore. The demo's opening track "Unite Us" comes in like a standard track and sets a good tone, just enough to let listeners know what they're doing. Then "Brain Dead" comes in like a monster with one of the hardest intros ever written. I can't imagine what a pit for "Brain Dead" looked like in 1987 New York. I've replayed the song a million times trying to visualize it. There's a level of self-awareness on the Altercation demo that so many bands in hardcore (not just NYHC) lack. Every bit of this release has so much the NYHC identity on it: aggression, patriotism, and cynicism.

3. Breakdown - 1987

Often considered by many as the best NYHC demo of all time. It is a perfect demo, to be sure. It embodies much of the NYHC spirit in its content but it is evident from the outset that the band was still figuring out what they were doing (and would later actualize on the Raw Deal demos). What the 87 demo represents is a seething and frustrated outlook on society. As corny and passe as this sounds, this demo is fighting music. It is an expression of there being no more words or conventions left to be said for the current state of things and all that was left is to hurt someone about it. Songs like "Safe In A Crowd", "Your Problems" and "Life of Bullshit" are letters of hate to future opponents. They're rationales for violence. That's what makes the 87 demo so celebrated. What was past was simply a prologue of bitching about problems and all that was left to do was start smashing people about it.

2. & 1. Raw Deal - 1989 & Raw Deal - 1988
Formed by three members of the Breakdown 87 demo lineup, Raw Deal was the sound's next evolution. For as raw and as imposing as the 87 demo is, the Raw Deal demos took everything to the next level. The lyrics are bitter, jaded, and combative. The music is far more calculated than the 87 demo as well. Imagine someone who knows that throwing punches and strikes hurts someone. They throw as many as they can until they've put their opponent away. That's the 87 demo. Now imagine someone who knows what to hit and where and how many times. Those are the Raw Deal demos. They're every bit as intense and powerful as the 87 demo but with much more understanding of what its trying to be.  The demos reflected an attitude of a scene that was beginning to crumble. By then, New York hardcore had become, please forgive the pun, a warzone. Brooklyn and Queens had emerged as viable scenes, drugs were a rampant problem, and gentrification caused the scene to clash with any normos that got near it. You can call the Raw Deal demos anything you want. Say they're the end of an era or the beginning of another, but what you can't deny is that they served as an important crossroads moment for an entire scene much in the way when Age of Quarrel was released.

Wednesday, February 17, 2016

Top 10 NYHC LPs Of All Time

Before anyone grossly overreacts: I did not count any crossover records that were out of bounds from the NYHC scene. This includes Agnostic Front's Cause For Alarm, later Cro-Mags records, and Carnivore.

Honorable Mentions:

Madball - Set It Off
Leeway - Born To Expire
Gorilla Biscuits - Gorilla Biscuits
Gorilla Biscuits - Start Today
Crumbsuckers - Life Of Dreams
Bold - Speak Out
Nihilistics - Nihilistics
Sick Of It All - Blood Sweat And No Tears
Crown Of Thorns - Mentally Vexed
SFA - New Morality
Judge - Bringin' It Down
Youth Of Today - Break Down The Walls
Kraut - An Adjustment To Society
Sheer Terror - Just Can't Hate Enough
Beyond - No Longer At Ease
Token Entry - From Beneath The Streets
Warzone - Open Your Eyes
Murphy's Law - Back With A Bong

10. Underdog - The Vanishing Point
One of those bands whose demos are lauded as the highlight of their career. The Vanishing Point is such a great album for two reasons: the rhythm section (one of the best ever in hardcore) and Richie Birkenhead's vocals. Birkenhead's vocals are a bit of a gem when it comes to hardcore. The man's voice was always too good to be a part of this, but the man himself lived for being a part of this. On TVP, we got to hear Birkenhead's vocals for Underdog truly done justice. It wasn't just the guy who got stabbed outside of CBGBs and played a show in the same night anymore, it was the guy who would go on to Into Another.

9. Sick Of It All - Just Look Around
Another album I'll catch flak for picking, but there's so much more going on Just Look Around that it merits a lot of discussion. The album's eponymous track features one of the best bass intros of all time. The track's lyrics, whose chorus dealt with the ongoing racial tensions in Crown Heights, are dripping with more political cynicism than a hundred anarcho-punk records combined. The scary thing is that this is the downtempo song on the album. The rest of the album are Sick Of It All songs tuned lower and so they come in hard and fast the entire time. The other thing that makes this album worthy of note is that by the time it was released, most of the NYHC scene had moved on from hardcore. Either people were in crossover thrash acts, post-hardcore bands, or moved on entirely. Sick Of It All were one of the few who stuck around in this era (especially as holdovers from the previous era). The band never loses perspective of where they came from while producing something that spoke the times they lived in.

8. Supertouch - The Earth Is Flat
The first time I ever took ecstasy, I listened to this album. I frantically called every friend in my phone book that I had determined the greatest NYHC album ever. All they could ask me was "James, are you on drugs?" I quickly said yes and they proceeded to hang up. The Earth Is Flat is not the greatest NYHC record ever, but it is a very special one. For one thing, it is the perfect bridge between NYHC and the post-hardcore movement that would take over New York a short time later. Mark Ryan's lyrics and vocals are some of the ambitious from the scene (mirroring scene contemporary Richie Birkenhead). Everything on TEIF is about nuance and subtlety. Rather than try and drive in as much as possible, the idea was to create a soundscape putting listeners in a sonic desert. Despair, grief, and fear come in many shapes and forms. Supertouch did it completely different than anyone else in the scene, serving as a forerunner to New York post-hardcore.

7. Leeway - Desperate Measures
I'm going to catch flak for this pick but the fact is Desperate Measures is the better album. Born To Expire has the hits, but pound-for-pound this album blows it out of the water. While BTE tracks has a lot of the attitude that other NYHC records of the day had, DM bears a lot of cynicism about life on the streets that were destroyed by drugs. The riffs on DM coupled with Eddie's vocals tackling the reality of a city that basically lost the war with drugs is so tragic. The album being able to maintain its intensity makes it hard to ignore what's really going on with DM. From the opening track "Make Me An Offer" to "The Future", DM takes listeners down a path of addiction and a feral will to survive in such a beautiful way that only Eddie Sutton's vocals could do it justice.

6. Rest In Pieces - My Rage
Everything about Rest In Pieces is off-putting. It is an album that personifies the ugly side of NYHC. A scene of drug-addled, drunken goons out looking for a fight. The album itself is a perfect soundtrack for street fights. The funny thing about Rest In Pieces is that these were the songs that weren't used for Sick Of It All or leftover from Straight Ahead. The virtuoso guitarwork of Rob Echeverria really shines on this record (including the underrated solo on "Balls N All"). Whereas Sick Of It All wrote anthems about making a point, Rest In Pieces made a point to demonstrate that they were degenerates and would have no problem putting you through the street to remind you of this fact.

5. Killing Time - Brightside
Following the two best demos in NYHC history, Killing Time (formerly Raw Deal) released their debut LP Brightside. Most of the songs from those demos comprised the track listing on the LP. The songs are grating in their purpose. The idea was to incite violence. It was a reflection of the times. By the end of the 80s, everything in NYC had to be resolved by violence. The scene was in a losing battle on every front: with the city, the incoming gentrification, with each other. All that was left was violence and Killing Time provided the songs to paint a picture of what was left of old NYHC in the face of its destruction.

4. Warzone - Don't Forget The Struggle, Don't Forget The Streets
A lot has been said about Raybeez as the years have gone by. A lot of what he did later in life and what he did before hardcore punk. I don't care about any of that. I know that when this record came down, he lived for every single block of the Lower East Side. I know that this album was written expressly for the kids coming into the NYHC pipeline. This was the album to let them know this was the code of conduct and their philosophy from now on. Every single track is a subculture Art of War lesson. It is so goddamn easy to say "Don't Forget The Struggle, Don't Forget The Streets" but so few really understand it. Add in Jay Skin's riffs which never lose potency alongside an excellent rhythm section, this album is more than just a few catchphrases.

3. Bad Brains - Rock For Light
The band who brought hardcore to New York. Before they came along, there was punk in New York but the Bad Brains brought the city vision on just what they could do with it. There can be argument on whether or not the Bad Brains can lay claim to New York City, but anybody from New York who was there will adamantly tell you they're a New York band. This record by itself is perfection and an amazing encapsulation of them harnessing their sound. Before this, the goal was to play as fast as possible, on Rock For Light the band understood that they could use a lot of the rhythm they knew how to use and put it toward their hardcore punk songs. The result was classic songs like "Coptic Times" and "We Will Not".

2. Agnostic Front - Victim In Pain
This is the album that made NYHC, NYHC. Before this it was just hardcore punk in New York. Agnostic Front minted the scene with this one. They were no longer the city between Boston and DC. This album put New York on the map and gave everybody after them the way to go. Every single song is biting and raw from Miret's vocals to Stigma's riffs. It's all completely untouchable. It also laid out a lot of themes we'd see later in NYHC such as patriotism ("United & Strong") and inner-scene conflict ("Fascist Attitudes"). Agnostic Front didn't just do it first, they did it best.

1. Cro-Mags - Age of Quarrel
This album personified an entire lifestyle. By 1986, NYHC's ranks had fully developed. The world was in the death throes of the Cold War. AIDS was destroying entire areas of New York City. Gentrification was in full swing and the concrete jungle was on its way out. This album was basically a reminder to all New York hardcore kids who they were as they looked the world in the face. There's a reason why NYHC originals look back on this record with such fondness. It inspired them to fight harder than they ever had. It's remarkable how far we've come in thirty years on Age of Quarrel. The songs still teach kids about hardcore as a way of life. This album is in every initiated person's DNA.

Friday, February 12, 2016

An Open Letter To Ian Connor

Dear Ian,

We need to have a talk, king to "king".

First, I must admit I did not know who you were until yesterday when a picture of your client surfaced wearing a jacket that emulated an American Nightmare album cover. While Wes' jacket was inspired by a Jim Goldberg photo book, given your age and understanding, I'm going to assume your inspiration was not the same. Second, I must admit that I am a bit of a neophyte to the fashion world. Last year at a club in New York, a drunken Alexander Wang bumped into me. I did not know who he was, so I shot him a glare to let him know he had invaded my space. The doe-eyed designer quickly scuttled off and I returned to speaking with my friend. Starstruck, she told me, "James, that was Alexander Wang!" All I could respond with was "who the fuck is Alexander Wang?" You see, Ian, I am not a fashionista. That is not my world. It is yours. My world is hardcore and punk. It is where I come from and who I am. The problem I have is that you have made a name for yourself in that world claiming to represent mine.

I took the time to learn about you today. You've become quite the celebrity from the work you've done with your client. I learned you once showed up to a meeting with him in beat up Sketchers. The press loved you for that. Vogue said you had a "cool-kid sense of personal style" for it. You revealed to Viper Mag that you found serial killers 'amusing and interesting'. No doubt a claim intended to induce shock in your interviewer and audience. You have quite the resume, I must admit. Making your rise in the A$AP Mob until you were contacted by Virgil Abloh (who I'm sure took a shine to your infantile understanding of the subculture) and of course now, where you are hailed as your client's muse. Quite the journey for a kid who was run out of the Atlanta scene after he stole a box of shirts from the hometown hero band and bragged about it.

Now to the matter of why I am writing to you today. I think we need to establish some particulars on the identity you have crafted for yourself. You have boldly claimed to be the "King of the Youth". You (and your former employer for that matter) have made a living out of cheaply representing themselves denizens of the subculture. I believe the more appropriate term I have heard is "culture vulture". You claim to represent an initiated knowledge of the subculture and apply it to your cutting edge visual arts degrees. The result is not wild innovation or visionary constructions. The results are cheap derivations of the original content trotted out to an audience too stupid to know the real deal. That is the one thing you and I see eye-to-eye on, Ian. We both know your audience is the lowest common denominator. That your ideas are thrown into an ocean of fools. We both know that your near zero knowledge of the subculture wouldn't get you past the status of a mark fan in my world, but to your client's sister-in-law? I'm sure you sound like a young Andy Warhol. A trail-blazing Bohemian who grinded it out and made it. Deep down, you must be laughing at your client. Here he is, the self-proclaimed greatest musical artist of all time, deferring to you for style decisions, you, once self-proclaimed Warhound fan.

Moreover, I see you rubbing elbows with some of my friends still in the subculture. Friends who have made it to their own stratosphere of success. Their association with you is not what I take exception to. It is your choice to associate with them. You do it because it is easy. It is easy to hang out with those of us who made it. You maintain your status with the ever-ogling eyes of the paparazzi while upping your fraudulent cultural capital among your peers. The subculture isn't a way of life for you. It's people, not your friends. For you, it is an accessory to a brand. Props to the grand production of fiction that has become your persona. I don't think you ever knew what it really meant to be a part of this. I can't believe someone who did would abandon it so readily. It is easier to believe you were a tourist all along.

This isn't about liking certain bands since day one. It isn't about going to every show ever or having the rarest band shirts or even the best taste in music. It's about the willingness to stick it out in the trenches with your friends because that's all you have in those trenches. You don't understand that being in the subculture is hard work. In a lot of ways it kind of sucks. By choosing to be a part of this you undergo hardships financially, socially, mentally, and emotionally. We lose a lot from being involved in this. We gain a lot from being in it too. We know what we're doing in those trenches are ahead of everyone else, on our terms, and for each other. Being a part of this means making our own families, our own styles and brands borne from our identity and locale. You don't know anything about that. You never will. All you do is look down at the rest of us while you cherrypick what you determine "cool", shine it up and serve it on a platter for people who could never understand the place and people you took it from.

The fact is, you don't know what cool is. I know that me and you can walk into a record store in Japan and I will pick the right records and shirts because I made it my business to know what is good and what isn't. You will blindly swoop in and buy up this rack of shirts and this box of records. You'll go back to your studio and match up that vintage Discharge shirt you paid triple for to your client's wife's dress. That doesn't make you the king of anything. It doesn't make you an authority on the subculture. It means you're no better than one of the thousand automatons graduating from FIDM every year. The difference between you and them is that you saw Harm's Way live once.

I'm sorry that our introduction had to be like this. However, I can't say we would have ever talked in person. If we did, it would have been brief. What would we have to talk about? Would we debate if Eric Casanova did it better than JJ? Would I ask if you knew my friend from Philly? Would you reminisce with me about a certain live band's performance?  I don't believe you would.

You seem to have done well in the fashion world and I really wish I could congratulate you for it. There is nothing more beautiful to me than seeing a fellow hardcore kid or punk make it big in the world. However, I can't say 'congratulations' to you. You're not a hardcore kid making it. You're just another person. The only reason I am writing to you today is because you are just another person stealing from the world that me and so many of my friends have chosen to make their reality. I need you to know you're false because everything you're doing makes this cheaper for the rest of us. It makes it as manufactured and plastic as your client's in-laws.

"This is my world so get the fuck out and try that shit with someone else" - No Warning "My World"

James Khubiar
King of Subculture

Wednesday, February 10, 2016

200,000 Hits / Thank You

The blog just crossed 200,000 hits. I don't know what that means. I've replayed the number in my hundreds of times now trying to think of what it means exactly. Here is what I've concluded. If I had gone on to doctoral school and published some papers in a sociology quarterly as an academic, even if I was a good one, 200,000 people would never have read what I had to say. In some ways, I feel really vindicated knowing that.

I don't really have words to describe how grateful I am to know people read this. I'll be honest, I don't think anyone is ever reading. I tell myself that when I write. It's the only way I can suspend all of the deep-seeded insecurities I have long enough to write something and hit publish. The whole Justified Arrogance moniker is a big joke. Anybody who knows me, knows I am the most insecure and self-conscious person you'll ever meet. If someone had told me my writing was no good when I started, I would have stopped.

If you guys will indulge me for a moment, I'll tell you a story about how Justified Arrogance came to be and why knowing people reading this means so much to me.

I started writing Justified Arrogance in August of 2014. I didn't do it trying to make a name in journalism. I didn't do it because I wanted to flex knowledge on people. I didn't do it to groom future hardcore kids and punks. No. The original reason I started Justified Arrogance was because I needed it.

In July 2014, I came back to my parents' house in Maryland after spending three months in Los Angeles. It was in Los Angeles that I lost myself, was beaten with verbal abuse almost daily, I realized I was in love and then had to deal with the heartbreak of losing that person. At my parents' house, decompressing and in social isolation, I began to unravel. I was trying to cope while facing the growing pressure of finishing writing my TV series. All the while, I tried desperately and hopelessly to prove my love was worth acceptance. I fell into my own subconscious. I had nothing left. Do you know when you have nothing? When yesterday never existed, you're numb to today, and tomorrow is just a word.

I spent most of August 2014 waiting by the phone. When you know why you're waiting for someone to call, it feels like forever. Prisons come in many shapes and forms. Waiting by the phone for a call you don't think is coming is one I don't wish on anyone. Much in the way inmates wait for the day their time will come for freedom from their prisons, I tried finding anything to pass the time. I saw a thread on some social media group for younger kids looking for new music. I had a ton of music on my computer and nothing but time so I started posting links with brief explanations of the bands. That was honestly it. The thread got deleted and kids kept messaging me for links. I had a leftover blog and took what I was doing there. As pathetic as this sounds, that kept me going for that month. I started writing about bands I had grown up with like Power Trip and Iron Age. The blog got more personal. And that was that, I had a format. 

All a writer ever has are words. That's it. We do our best with what language allows us to use to make our feelings and convictions clear. Most of the time it is because we fail to make those clear across other avenues. We're mutes that life afforded us an outlet to. At the end of the day, all they are is just words. People give those words life. They laugh and cry and discuss what you've written and that means those words don't just exist in your head or on paper anymore. Your words connected with someone. For someone who doesn't feel connected with almost anyone, knowing that my words connected with someone, now and after I'm gone, matters.

Justified Arrogance wasn't a claim I made to be cocky. It was a claim I made to stay alive. That sounds stupid but I can't sit here and tell you I would have survived that first month without it. I escaped back to Dallas in October 2014 where I used the writing from here to get a freelance gig with the Dallas Observer. I used that to get noticed by Noisey and used that to make friends east where I would move to in January 2015. Justified Arrogance gave me a reason to want to live again.

Special thanks to Jay Chary, Hayden Robertson, and Jakke Sullivan for contributing to this blog. Thank you to Riley Gale, Matthew Adis, Jake Ballesteros, Luke Kislak for doing interviews and profiles with us. Thanks to anyone who has ever consulted on a list. Thank you to the other blogs who share our link. Lastly, thank you to the kid who recognized me in line for the Isterismo after show during New York's Alright last year. You told me you liked my writing and it was the first time a stranger ever acknowledged any of this. Between that and the company I was with, it was honestly the best feeling I will ever have, so thank you.

Thank you to anyone who has ever read this, shared it with anyone, that loved or hated it

- James Khubiar